There is a boarding school tucked away in the suburbs of Tokyo. The doctrine preached here is so religiously rigid the Tea Party (the ultra-conservatives in the USA) salivates over the mere mention. Here is the Mecca of conservative Christians in Japan. I went there for high school not because my parents were particularly thrilled or in sync with the school's teachings but because this was the only international school in Japan with boarding facilities. Here I learned the art of sneaking out of the dorm (I never got caught) and breaking rules without seeming to do so. Here I learned the art of of creatively interpreting said rules, following them by my own code and thus changing the intent altogether, but doing so in a convincing way insuring I would not be punished--skills that have served me well in adulthood.
I didn't like some of my classmates or dorm sisters. Some didn't like me. None of this really mattered then and it certainly matters less now. Of our graduating class--the best the school ever produced (we all agree on this)--the ones with the most professional power today are the ones considered back then the least likely to succeed. We are all incredibly proud of this and secretly conspire at our quarterly nights out to show up at school some day in expensive cars and tailored suits, dripping jewelry and cash everywhere we go. We haven't done this to date, and considering our crazy schedules the likelihood of all of us taking a night to show off will never happen.
Some of my classmates had parents who took religious indoctrination very seriously. For them, being at this boarding school didn't put them far out of their comfort zone. For others, me for example, this school was my chamber of horrors. Except for one key fact: friends I made back then are still friends today.
There is a bond that forms when people go through a similarly intense experience. That this shared experience happened during our formative high school years--teenage angst for all--only solidifies the bond. Which is why when I gather with my classmates all of whom happen to be male and they spend the night sharing the same stories (funny each time) and taking part in behavior I would never put up with from any other male, it is cause for reflection.
Their behavior on these nights out is bad. Really bad. The stories they share are wild, illegal, immoral, crazy, stupid, and mean. Last night was one such night. After several hours of howling laughter and revealing more secrets, reminiscing over days where my ex and I fought more than kissed, Sebastian says the following: "You're pretty liberated. Why do you put up with us?"
I'm about to say, "Honey, I'm beyond liberated. Betty Friedan would come to me for advice on feminism." I don't say this because: a). Sebastian wouldn't know who Betty Friedan is, b). it's not true, and, c). it sounds rather uppity. Instead I offer an alternative truth.
"I love you guys."
And, there it is.
This is no romantic love. It's a bond shared by many who have gone through and emotionally intense period--like prison or the military. This bond transcends ordinary definitions of friendship. It connects. It ties together for life.
"I'd never tolerate this kind of behavior from anyone else," I say.
"What would you do?" Theo asks.
"I wouldn't hang out with you in the first place. We would never be friends."
The word for children (now and in the past) who have grown up abroad is Third Culture Kid. Or, TCK. We are now adult third culture kids, or ATCKs. We don't quite fit in back in our own countries--those of our passports--and we don't quite fit in here either. Yet, and here's a truly beautiful fact, we get both. We're comfortable in both. We are of multiple cultures finding a sense of belonging wherever we happen to be at the moment. We are of both (many) but we are of neither. This makes perfect sense in our world, but because this lifestyle is still shared by relatively few in the population, there are not many others who "get" it. Who "get" us. This only strengthens the bond among those of us who are TCKs. It's absolutely true their behavior in other men (or women) is something I would never ever put up with from anyone else. But, from these men--my brothers, my exes, my friends--I disregard my own rules. Our baggage, however horrible it may have been (including how we behaved as children and teenagers) is forgiven, understood, and accepted.
So, today I am grateful for bonds. I am grateful for people who "get" me. Even if they almost get us kicked out of a restaurant for being so loud and wild.
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